Idag är det en sån dag....

Och det är inte kul kan jag säga.
Jag mår inte bra idag. jag känner mig annorlunda. Jag känner mig inte som mig. Jag har fått höra på senaste tiden att jag inte är den jag var för några veckor sen... Detta har lett till att jag funderar och funderar på vad jag ska göra annorlunda för att bli mig själv igen...? Åh, alltså jag gillar ärligheten, men ibland är den sjukt jobbig att höra när man väl lyssnar på orden som sagts.
Jag verkligen hatar när jag hakar upp mig på saker. Det bara ligger som en grå skugga innanför min panna och det dyker upp när jag minst anar det. Och jag vet inte om jag kan/vill prata med någon om det

Jag vet innerst inne att det är min hjärna som spelar spratt med mig, men jag kan inte sluta bry mig, analysera.

Skit samma. Detta är bara mitt drama.
Imorgon kommer solen skina lite.. kanske!

Men en låt som kan beskriva min känsla som jag har i kroppen just nu är, Wonderful World med James Morrison

I've been down so low
People look at me and they know
They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong

Staring through a window
Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in
And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I wish that I could make it better
I'd give anything for you to call me, or maybe just a little letter
Oh, we could start again

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
I can't feel it right now
I got all the right clothes to wear
I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

And I know that it's a wonderful world
When you're with me